My eating has been trash lately.
Last night, for example: lots of shredded cheese, some shredded cheese melted on top of Cheez-its. A can of Sprite for the first time in years.
Night before last: a container of Rebel ice cream.
For three days in a row, the last night ending with the ice cream night: Beecher’s Mac and Cheese from Costco…. the package said it served 6-9. I ate it in three equal portions over three nights.
Sometime in that mix, I ate hearty portions of the sour gummies Oliver wanted at Trader Joe’s.
The days start out okay. Most mornings lately I have been having walnuts and almond flour crackers for breakfast. Occasionally I have a protein bar with them; I am trying to cut back on the protein bars.
About midday I make my Dunkin’ Decaf coffee, and put in my Anthony’s Marine Collagen in it. And I nurse it for the rest of the day in a Thermos tumbler.
I had tried to cut out cheese and most processed foods except for the almond flour crackers.
However, bananas apparently make me sick — I am repeatedly nauseous when adding a banana to my banana/ wild blueberries/ spinach/ almond milk smoothie.
And so I gave up on the smoothies for several days. I will probably try one again today.
And I haven’t made egg whites as a meal in several days, either.
But, despite last night’s junk food, I woke up ready to face the day today.
I didn’t make it to my church ladies’ group because Liam had a haircut in Sandy Springs with Finch at Aura Salon and I let Jared take him, and stayed home with Oliver instead. While Oliver can stay home for short periods on his own, leaving town with neither of us in town is not a good idea, obviously. Even if I could have called Mama and Daddy to be on standby.
And honestly, I also needed to sleep in. I slept until 10:39 this morning.
We’ve got projects I’d intended to get done around the house for Fall Break.
The bushes need trimming back dramatically, and I have film to coat the windows in to provide more insulation, and I have 4 more sets of sheers to iron and put up because we really need one more panel on each of the 8 windows around the house.
And we bought an actual old-school mop at Walmart this past weekend, intending to actually clean the floors really, really well since dog pee and poop has become a regular thing (it’s not their fault we can’t keep up since they are getting older, and sometimes they miss the puppy pads).
But I have been in avoidance mode for reasons I’m not yet ready to talk about. Maybe next week.
I’ve let the stress of anticipation get in the way of self-care, and all that.
But today: Today it is 1:44 PM as I write this and I have done my light therapy. I made my gratitude list. I listened to this week’s “The Next Right Thing” with Emily P. Freeman as I did two of my physical therapy exercises.
I did two of my physical therapy exercises for the first time in weeks.
Jared wants to go on a walk.
And my only house goal today is to iron those sheers and get them up. That is not a hard task.
Baby steps.
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