Tag: faith

  • life in these times



    My aunt and uncle and cousins sent me the beautiful flowers in the photos above, having had them delivered Friday. So beautiful!

    I didn’t feel up to trying to get out the camera to photograph them until this afternoon, and it is clear that carrying my camera in my purse for the next six weeks is simply not an option at all. 

    All in all though, recovery is going well even though I’m only 3 days out from surgery. Pain is already almost non-existent and I’m going to attempt to sleep through the night tonight without waking up for pain meds. And, I’ve avoided the strongest prescribed option for pain so far altogether, which I am much relieved about. 

    These photos were taken with the GFX 50sII and my prized Schneider-Kreuznach Cinelux Ultra 85mm f2 MC lens. I love that my favorite lens was made to be an IMAX lens. 

    Emily P Freeman always cites Barbara Brown Taylor when she talks about “Things that are saving my life right now,” and it seems fitting to talk about the things that are saving my life right now:

    1. My gratitude list is at the top of that list of things that are saving my life right now. For a while I was publishing my gratitude lists both here and on social media. But it’s true that most days I itemize 50 different things or people or situations that I am grateful for. Keeping up with cultivating that grateful attitude really does help my mental health.
    2. In the interest of complete honesty with regard to the hysterectomy: the best investment I made prior to the hysterectomy was purchasing the 7.98 yoga pants that I found at Walmart two nights before surgery. While pain is minimal, swelling is rough and finding pants that have a very, very forgiving waistline has made all the difference, for sure.
    3. Having the surgery just before a holiday weekend means that Jared has been available for longer than he otherwise would have been, which has been a relief.
    4. Google Gemini has been an interesting tool for several months now. I’ve used it to plot blog ideas, Gemini helped me redesign this very blog down to color schemes for the links. I considered moving domain names away from my own name and Gemini helped me lay out the pros and cons of each, leading me to keep my own name as the current domain name. And that’s just only two examples…..there have been endless examples since I started using Gemini probably last October or so.
    5. Acceptance and Commitment Therapy techniques are also saving my life right now. I’ve long known to tell myself that “I am not my illness,” but I recently started reading The Happiness Trap. The psychological flexibility that I hope will come from separating myself from my thoughts and feelings I do think may actually change my life forever.

    As always, I continue to work on processing past trauma and what I am finding through my meditation and gratitude practices along with the techniques like cognitive defusion that I am learning about….all of that is helping me to learn to live in the present. Which makes nights like tonight, when Jared and I went to sit at the Marina for a while, all the more precious.

    Thanks for reading! You can read more about me here. Later!

  • a return to my roots: blogging


    The baby factory in these parts is officially out of business! I’m two days out from my complete hysterectomy. Mostly feeling good, mostly bored already and want to be able to do what I could do before instead of having to be a couch potato for the next six weeks.

    2025 has been hard for a variety of reasons. I don’t even know what to say.

    It has been announced on my personal Facebook page, but Caroline Price Photography is shutting down in August after the remainder of my current client galleries expire.

    I have photographed 48 weddings, one quinceañera, and countless portrait sessions. My heart is full. Thank you to each of you who have trusted me with capturing your memories.

    So, what’s next?

    The truth is, I’m not really sure. I intend to write here more often. Content will likely be stream-of-consciousness musings.

    And, I will continue to be into photography as a hobby– I will still take photos of flowers I come across, I will still take my camera everywhere for serendipitous photos. The hydrangeas in the photo above are on one of the bushes next to my house.

    Ultimately, I will be a whole lot more focused on self-care and tending to my family.

    And in the process, I am likely to reflect on the solid life lessons and growth that I’ve found helpful in the last several months.

    Stay tuned!

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  • grateful december 31, 2024

    grateful december 31, 2024

    Us, January 3, 2004
    1. I am grateful for 2024.
    2. I am grateful for forgiveness.
    3. I am grateful to have a real piano in the house again.
    4. I am grateful Wicked is out for rent and purchase now.
    5. I am grateful for shifts in perspective.
    6. I am grateful for my gratitude practice.
    7. I am grateful for my meditation practice.
    8. I am grateful that my lungs work.
    9. I am grateful for working appliances.
    10. I am grateful for clean water.
    11. I am grateful to have a hot water heater.
    12. I am grateful for a reliable electric grid.
    13. I am grateful for Jared.
    14. I am grateful for my marriage to Jared.
    15. I am grateful for Porter.
    16. I am grateful for Liam.
    17. I am grateful for Oliver.
    18. I am grateful for the NICU at the University of Iowa.
    19. I am grateful for the NICU at Emory Midtown.
    20. I am grateful for modern medicine.
    21. I am grateful for Ronald McDonald House Charities.
    22. I am grateful for Habitat for Humanity.
    23. I am grateful to have been born when Jimmy Carter was President of the United States.
    24. I am grateful for love.
    25. I am grateful for compassion.
    26. I am grateful for critical thinking skills.
    27. I am grateful for my family.
    28. I am grateful for Jared’s family.
    29. I am grateful for music.
    30. I am grateful for art.
    31. I am grateful for good teachers and mentors.
    32. I am grateful for a pretty day today.
    33. I am grateful Jared got to ride his scooter on I-20, I-285, and I-85 today and came home alive. He is excited that he knows he can safely ride into Atlanta now.
    34. I am grateful HOPE and Zell Miller scholarships.
    35. I am grateful for Steve Ross yoga.
    36. I am grateful for the internet.
    37. I am grateful to know how to read.
    38. I am grateful to like to read.
    39. I am grateful my children like to read.
    40. I am grateful that I like to write.
    41. I am grateful to know how to type.
    42. i am grateful to be able to exercise.
    43. I am grateful for holidays with the boys and Jared.
    44. I am grateful that we have a roof over our heads.
    45. I am grateful for good friends.
    46. I am grateful we have enough to eat.
    47. I am grateful for musical theater.
    48. I am grateful to be refreshing my French on Duolingo.
    49. I am grateful for my memories.
    50. I am grateful for the way photography re-trains my brain to see the beauty in the world.
  • grateful — december 28, 2024

    grateful — december 28, 2024

    I’ve been radio silent on this blog for a while and every time I post I think this is the start of when I might start posting on a regular basis. The truth is, I write every day, sometimes on Facebook but without fail in my journal software. I’m interested in being a blogger, but I’ve felt like I had to guard my words and thoughts for a while now and a lot of what I wanted to write about just really wasn’t appropriate to write about in public mostly because it would re-traumatize myself.

    Anyway, I’ve been doing gratitude lists daily for over a year now and they’ve included 50 things on them since February or so of this year. For much of the month of December, I posted my daily gratitude lists on Facebook for my friends to read. But likely, they are tired of that daily oversharing, and I do have this space that is all mine. So, here is today’s gratitude list. I doubt this will be a daily post. But, it makes me feel good to post it here today.

    1. I am grateful for Jared.
    2. I am grateful for my marriage to Jared.
    3. I am grateful I can get on with a routine and not worry about exactly staying awake as long as Jared does.
    4. I am grateful for my education.
    5. I am grateful for mornings.
    6. I am grateful for foggy mornings.
    7. I am grateful for AGI, brie or goat cheese, sunflower seeds, a protein bar, and decaf coffee + collagen for breakfast.
    8. I am grateful for the way photography re-trains my brain to see the beauty in the world.
    9. I am grateful my children are healthy.
    10. I am grateful for peace and quiet.
    11. I am grateful for Mow, Nancy, Bess, Abby, and Trixie.
    12. I am grateful for my family.
    13. I am grateful for Jared’s family.
    14. i am grateful for my memories.
    15. I am grateful for my education, both inside and outside the classroom.
    16. I am grateful for music.
    17. I am grateful for art.
    18. I am grateful I know how to read.
    19. I am grateful I like to read.
    20. I am grateful for healthy changes in perspective.
    21. I am grateful for forgiveness.
    22. I am grateful for time to think.
    23. I am grateful for Steve Ross yoga.
    24. I am grateful for good friends.
    25. I am grateful for my church.
    26. I am grateful for all the churches I’ve attended in my life.
    27. I am grateful for my work history.
    28. I am grateful for comfortable shoes.
    29. I am grateful a simple Christmas 2024.
    30. I am grateful for good teachers and mentors.
    31. I am grateful to know a lot of talented artists.
    32. I am grateful to know how to cut my own hair myself.
    33. I am grateful to know how to do simple trims my family’s hair when they want me to.
    34. I am grateful my family is not hungry.
    35. I am grateful to be volunteering somewhere again.
    36. I am grateful to have discovered chickpea pasta.
    37. I am grateful to be both a cat and a dog person.
    38. I am grateful to have a blog.
    39. I am grateful for the years I spent tinkering with WordPress theme designs. It meant that when I bought a theme I liked, I could tweak it to be just so like I wanted.
    40. I am grateful to know how to play the piano.
    41. I am grateful to have a real piano in the house again.
    42. I am grateful that 2024 has been a year of growth.
    43. I am grateful to be less afraid of the world these days.
    44. i am grateful I’ve finally had the patience to let my hair grow.
    45. I am grateful it doesn’t matter if my hair ever thins because I do actually like how I look bald.
    46. I am grateful for modern medicine.
    47. I am grateful for modern psychiatric medicine.
    48. I am grateful to know at least some history.
    49. I am grateful to appreciate history.
    50. I am grateful I like to learn.

      Happy Holidays, Everyone.