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Holding On And a Facelift


Most of this is repeat from Facebook posts. Sorry if I am repeating myself.

This week, I’m working really, really hard on staying in the present. It’s so hard to stay mindful. I’m focusing on what I can control because it feels like so much of what is going on in the world is out of my control. Mostly what that means is that I can control my reactions to my immediate surroundings.

Staying home is getting old. I miss my friends. I miss my clients. This social distancing thing is hard. Doing Kindergarten at home is hard.

Our kitchen has needed a face lift for some time. We have a dark wood trim throughout our bottom floor and our kitchen cabinets were the same shade. This week, I am painting the doors of those cabinets white.

This is before. I forgot to take the “before” picture before I started the painting of the panels under the sink.
This is in the brightest of the afternoon light. It’s already dramatically lighter in our kitchen even though there are six doors to go on this side.

When the social distancing orders are lifted, my friend Johnny from Rough Cut Designs is going to come in and do new wood counters. Originally I thought to do dark counters the same shade as the wood trim but now that I am seeing portions of the white done I think that it would look better with a more medium stain, maybe more like a traditional butcher block color. But, I am hoping for something a little more rustic, material-wise.

Then, we’ll need to replace the dishwasher and the refrigerator and the kitchen will all be done.

Late tonight, the office got a re-arranging. The printer found a home on Minnie’s old sewing machine. I co-opted the other side of Jared’s desk (a.k.a. the dining room table) and we put the leaf back in. My old desk, which is ancient and came from Mother and Daddy’s house, and before that an old house on Austin Avenue here in Carrollton, became a kitchen island with its side leaves down. It remains to be seen if we’ll have enough functional space for the island to remain. I have always wanted an island, though, so…..better to try it and fail than to never know, right?

I am really hoping the down mood is hormones. I hate being depressed, even for one day. The mindfulness combats it when I can stay in the present, but it is something to be vigilant about.

I normally quit my light therapy in Spring and Summer, but I think I will give it a go in the morning. It can only help or do nothing, at worst.

love, Caroline