Thank you to everyone who reached out after yesterday’s post. I will be okay.
Today has been better; I still slept in until 9:30 and didn’t get up until nearly 10:30. Jared is gone to a day conference and left about 6:30 this morning but he made sure the boys were up and getting ready and I got up and took my meds and stayed up until the boys left for school.
One of the BIG bonuses to having a teen driver in the house is that he can take his little brother to school. We ask him to do it as little as possible, but this morning it felt necessary.
My solitary task for the day, the one non-negotiable, is that I have to get Oliver from school, after school today.
And I suppose if I’d had to I could have done it in my jammies– or more accurately– the clothes I put on after my shower last night. Most of my clothes double as jammies; one of the bonuses to living in leggings.
But, when I got up, I came out and got myself some plain greek yogurt and walnuts for breakfast. I sat down at my computer and I did my gratitude list for the first time since October 21. I actually journaled, as opposed to coming straight here to blog.
Things on the gratitude list for the day:
— I am grateful it was a Democratic sweep yesterday
— I am grateful for Abby
— I am grateful we have plastic to put over the windows because of the cold
— I am grateful I have the luxury of being bored
There were 50 things on my list, but you get the idea.
And then I remembered my Minolta lenses, and went to read a few reviews between the 58mm 1.2 (a lens I used to have and sold) and the 58mm 1.4 (a lens I currently have) and got the lens out and put it on the GFX:

And then I took this photo of Trixie, with the GFX:

And then after poking around online for a while…..I got myself cleaned up. And then I sent this photo to J:

And along with the photo, I sent this text to J:
“I cut on my hair so that it is now all close to properly one length; most of the layers including the thin section at the back of my neck are gone. Back to properly chin length but it felt good to give myself a haircut.
And I got a shower. And now I am about to warm up 3-day old coffee.
I feel not quite myself, but almost.”
The hair thing: I desperately want long hair. But my hair is extremely fine, and thinning by the day. So chin-length it may be. Regardless: now that it is all one length, it is so very obvious that my hair definitely needs absolutely not one single solitary layer in it at all. Too thin for that.
And yes, I do feel almost myself. A pizza is about to go into the oven for Oliver for when he gets home from school, and after I get him I am going to set to work about finishing the plastic-over-the-windows projects in both our bedroom and the living room. There is an awful lot more to do window-wise– the rest of the house– but if I can just get the hole in the plastic Trixie pierced the other day in the living room and the final door in the living room, along with the second window in our bedroom, it will be a successful day. I am determined to get most of this project done before the extreme cold hits next week.
Tomorrow is the diagnostic mammogram with potential ultrasound. I’m trying hard to not think about it.
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