So…. yeah. This was taken with the legendary lens that Fuji produced last year, that to this date is still backordered with no end to the backorder in sight.
Except, I managed to find a gently used one at KEH on Thursday.
To say that I am in love would be an understatement. And it arrived at just the right time of year, with the Japanese tulips blooming:
This is going to be my new workhorse lens for both personal and client projects. The zooms are great for weddings, the 35mm f1.4 has its place mostly inside, and the 50mm f2 will be relegated to probably macro work with the extension tube. This will be my new primary portrait lens; my profile photo on the front page of this site was taken today with this lens.
All that’s left kit-wise is to pick up is an extra Godox V1F flash at some point for receptions. But that is definitely something that can wait.
The new lens refreshes motivation to get out and snap photos, but really, I am working on increasing discipline so that I continue working even when motivation is lacking.
I’m going to be starting a new memoir-style series here over the next weeks. We’ll see how it goes; I’ve been frozen in a major depression for weeks now and it sort of bottomed out this week. The fact that I am able to post today means that it’s on an upswing for once– could be artificial because of the lens but I kind of don’t think so.
I finished Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert yesterday. SOOOOOO good. Timely too, because she discusses the discipline of creative work rather than sitting and waiting for inspiration to strike. That was something I needed to read for sure. It was an easy read, mostly read at the high school while I waited in the car rider line for Porter in the afternoons.
Next up has been an easy read so far, too: How to Do the Work by Dr. Nicole LePera. It’s a book about holistic psychology as recommended by my therapist.
I used to be a fairly disciplined person. Sort of. Then motherhood happened.
At any rate, I am taking discipline in small, measured baby steps right now. As in, as my therapist suggested yesterday, I set the timer and did dishes for 5 minutes. It turned out that 5 minutes wasn’t quite enough to get the massive amount of dishes loaded into the dishwasher, so I kept going just long enough to get the dishwasher started.
Little things like this can be monumental tasks some days. But yesterday, I managed to get the dishes done AND to rewash laundry and get it dried. I know, for those of you not well-acquainted with the type of chronic depression that consumes your whole body, mind, and soul that these may seem like non-negotiables.
Suffice it to say that yesterday was a win. Today has mostly been a win, as well.
Somewhere along the line, I stopped doing things by myself. It happened about the time Liam was born and I stopped working at Fernbank. I don’t know what happened, it doesn’t stretch to photo work but for tasks like going to the grocery store or other errands around town, I mostly defer to waiting around until Jared is available to go with me.
So today, there was a win: I wanted my lens and I’d had it shipped so I could sign for it at Dollar General, and I got notification that it had arrived. I hadn’t been awake long, but I thought of it for less than a second before I realized I didn’t have to wait for Jared to finish what he was doing: I could hop in the van and make the five-minute drive down the road by myself. So, I did.
Firmly going back to my roots with Fuji feels like home.
This shot was taken with a new-to-me Fuji 35mm 1.4.
I know why I sold this lens in 2015 and it wasn’t that I wanted to part with it exactly. I just wanted the new 16-55mm 2.8 more. But with having gifted my 35mm f2, a decision I am thrilled with because I wholeheartedly believe in paying it forward…..I was left with a hole in my Fuji gear.
I also picked up a Fuji X100F and I had forgotten how much fun that little camera is. It gives me a 23mm focal length too, so, it’s a win-win. I thought about the X100V but it takes a different battery than my X-H1’s and its processor is different and…..it just seemed to make a lot of sense to stick with the same generation of everything. Plus, I already had the X100F once and understand it well.
Jared says I am getting more comfortable with my gear, enough so that I can focus on the art. I hope he is right. I have truly been a gear-head in the past and I desperately want to grow out of it.
The Japanese tulip tree is about to burst with blooms any day, so I am excited to take photos of it when it blooms.
Also, FLASH SALE!
For a limited time, which expires March 8, 2021, wedding day coverage for 1 photographer is $800. Includes all portions of my normal 1-photographer but does not include an engagement session. Down payment of $175 and signed contract must be submitted by 5 pm on March 8, 2021 to be eligible for the sale.
Have a great weekend, everyone!
I am going to need a new journal soon. I started my current journal on December 28, 2019 and miraculously I have kept with it all this time.
I might switch to Moleskine notebooks instead of a formal journal. They are better for purses. And, I have several of Moleskine notebooks sitting around. But, regardless….the journal has to have no lines, like a sketchbook. I like the freedom to make my pages have as many lines of text as I feel like filling up.
All this to say, I love private, on paper journaling. But, I have desperately missed blogging. I love my people and I miss talking to you. I just have a brain the psychs me out for no good reason.
This has been the week I have gotten real about my health. I joined the Peloton app and have taken baby steps into learning about Pilates. I am still working the Noom program. I am working to balance sitting positions and sit up straighter when I am sitting in the recliner. I am drinking tons of water.
I’ve kept the light therapy lamp on most of the day to fight off late winter blah’s.
So ready for Spring!
This has also been the week I’ve been facing our mortality….lol. Sort of lol. Jared and I have started working on our wills. It’s way past time to have our affairs in order. We don’t have a lot but we want our wishes regarding the boys respected.
I have been all over the place this winter regarding my photo gear.
First it was a new-to-me Nikon APS-C DSLR, a D5600. It came with a 35mm 1.8. lens and a 10-20mm lens. I invested in an 18-200 lens as a walkaround lens for it.
Then, it was a Nikon D750 that came with a Sigma 24-105mm f4 lens. I then bought an 85mm 1.8 for it.
Then, I gifted (which I stand by 100%) my Fuji X-T20 and a 35mm lens to a friend and aspiring photographer.
My last wedding in January, I shot with the Fuji X-H1 and the D750.
All this to say, I have been having a gear identity crisis. But, I am nearly through it. And Fuji is winning out.
Hear me out:
The D750 is nifty. Even the D5600 is awesome in good light. However, I am not convinced that it is worth investing in more lenses for the D750. I love full-frame for portraits. But when I need reach, I need reach. At weddings, I need reach. So, I think the X-H1’s and the zooms will remain perfect for that purpose. I am not unhappy running dual systems and I do not regret having invested in the DSLR’s. I love my Nikon 35mm 1.8, and so I am happy with the decision to gift my Fuji 35mm. And the X-T20 literally sat there doing nothing for a year.
Moving forward, however, I am 99% certain that when investing in new gear, that gear will be Fuji. I am still holding out for the 50mm 1.0 lens, even though it is forever on backorder and may never be in stock again.
However, I am happy to have toyed around with the DSLR’s, because now. I. know. And I can move forward with eyes wide open.
This is Eunice Marie. She came to live with us a couple of weeks ago. She is 11 years old.
Eunie has had a little bit of an adjustment period. She begs for treats. She survives someone who passed from covid. She was very, very well loved in her previous home. We will be her retirement home. Her Mama named her, so we’re keeping the name, though we call her “Eunie” for short most of the time.
We are still determining pack order in this house, but luckily the skirmishes are spaced out and few. As we get to know each other, Jared and Liam are Eunie’s primary people. Abby and Trixie are satisfied with having another family member in the house, but Eunie’s whole world has been torn upside down so we are trying to be really patient with her. Eunie’s biggest disappointment with us is that we do not give her treats on begging command. Eunie has a very specific, very endearing way of begging and a softer heart would give into her pleas. However, I have her health in mind. So like our other girls, she gets one treat a day.
Eunie came with a menagerie of toys and clothing items. Sadly, Abby absconds with Eunie’s toys, so they mostly stay up in Liam’s room, where Eunie sleeps at night.
Eunie almost never barks, except when Abby barks. When Abby barks, Eunie is her echo. It is SO adorable.
Incidentally, my love affair of cleaning house with vinegar has grown for its deodorizing power. As has the need to wipe down each dog daily with baby wipes to cut down on smelliness.
We officially have a pack. I am not certain but I suspect Eunie may be our new Alpha.
Let’s get the ghost out of the closet…..
I shaved my head, obviously. I don’t hate hair and I’m not sick.
I did it mostly for fun. It was a semi-spur-of-the-moment decision. My hair was a little more than an inch long anyway, and it grows fast if I hated it.
The thing is, I sort of love it! There’s no struggle with the hair dryer or brush in the morning. There’s no product to deal with unless I want my scalp to smell a certain way. There’s no hiding the camera tattoo behind my ear.
And I learned something important: I LOVE the shape of my head! I have a little dimple-dent in the back–who knew? I didn’t! But now I do!
Now, it’s true: It is January and this time of year was perhaps not the smartest time of the year to shave one’s head for the first time. It was seriously cold the first few days. I invested in a beanie for cold mornings of taking the dogs out and getting the boys to school.
Honestly, it was truly liberating to prove to myself that no part of my self-esteem is derived from my hair.
Care is easy: I use my face soap to clean both my face and scalp now, and then I throw on some conditioner in the shower. I do still use my heat protectant creme when I get out even though the dryer isn’t necessary, but that is more about my head smelling good than it is about protecting my hair.
Greasy hair, which I dealt with in spades when I had hair, is a big pet peeve of mine and I hate dealing with it. I also hate dealing with morning bed-head hair.
For now, I don’t have to deal with any of it!
I miss going to my stylist because it was an excuse to visit her since she is a good friend, but I texted her and told her we will have to do dinners instead of visiting at the salon. Thankfully, she gets it!
And oddly, I feel more feminine than ever. That’s the best part of all.
I got to practice a little newborn photography this week when I got to photograph this sweet one-week old! It was so fun to be around a REALLY little again. I first met this family through a family shoot earlier in the Fall.
In the age of Covid, it is a matter of course that I wear a mask when I enter a home.
Newborn photography is an honor to be a part of when I have the opportunity. My newborn lifestyle sessions are low-key. I recommend planning on at least two hours for your session, to allow for breaks as baby needs.
In other news, I have started a Caroline Price Tribe group on Facebook– look it up! I would love to grow this group of interested, current, and former clients. #carolinepricetribe on Instagram is also a thing: feel free to tag your session and wedding photos as such!