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Firmly going back to my roots with Fuji feels like home.

This shot was taken with a new-to-me Fuji 35mm 1.4.

I know why I sold this lens in 2015 and it wasn’t that I wanted to part with it exactly. I just wanted the new 16-55mm 2.8 more. But with having gifted my 35mm f2, a decision I am thrilled with because I wholeheartedly believe in paying it forward…..I was left with a hole in my Fuji gear.

I also picked up a Fuji X100F and I had forgotten how much fun that little camera is. It gives me a 23mm focal length too, so, it’s a win-win. I thought about the X100V but it takes a different battery than my X-H1’s and its processor is different and…..it just seemed to make a lot of sense to stick with the same generation of everything. Plus, I already had the X100F once and understand it well.

Jared says I am getting more comfortable with my gear, enough so that I can focus on the art. I hope he is right. I have truly been a gear-head in the past and I desperately want to grow out of it.

The Japanese tulip tree is about to burst with blooms any day, so I am excited to take photos of it when it blooms.

Also, FLASH SALE!

For a limited time, which expires March 8, 2021, wedding day coverage for 1 photographer is $800. Includes all portions of my normal 1-photographer but does not include an engagement session. Down payment of $175 and signed contract must be submitted by 5 pm on March 8, 2021 to be eligible for the sale.

Have a great weekend, everyone!

love,
Caroline

I am going to need a new journal soon. I started my current journal on December 28, 2019 and miraculously I have kept with it all this time.

I might switch to Moleskine notebooks instead of a formal journal. They are better for purses. And, I have several of Moleskine notebooks sitting around. But, regardless….the journal has to have no lines, like a sketchbook. I like the freedom to make my pages have as many lines of text as I feel like filling up.

All this to say, I love private, on paper journaling. But, I have desperately missed blogging. I love my people and I miss talking to you. I just have a brain the psychs me out for no good reason.

This has been the week I have gotten real about my health. I joined the Peloton app and have taken baby steps into learning about Pilates. I am still working the Noom program. I am working to balance sitting positions and sit up straighter when I am sitting in the recliner. I am drinking tons of water.

I’ve kept the light therapy lamp on most of the day to fight off late winter blah’s.

So ready for Spring!

This has also been the week I’ve been facing our mortality….lol. Sort of lol. Jared and I have started working on our wills. It’s way past time to have our affairs in order. We don’t have a lot but we want our wishes regarding the boys respected.

I have been all over the place this winter regarding my photo gear.

First it was a new-to-me Nikon APS-C DSLR, a D5600. It came with a 35mm 1.8. lens and a 10-20mm lens. I invested in an 18-200 lens as a walkaround lens for it.

Then, it was a Nikon D750 that came with a Sigma 24-105mm f4 lens. I then bought an 85mm 1.8 for it.

Then, I gifted (which I stand by 100%) my Fuji X-T20 and a 35mm lens to a friend and aspiring photographer.

My last wedding in January, I shot with the Fuji X-H1 and the D750.

All this to say, I have been having a gear identity crisis. But, I am nearly through it. And Fuji is winning out.

Hear me out:

The D750 is nifty. Even the D5600 is awesome in good light. However, I am not convinced that it is worth investing in more lenses for the D750. I love full-frame for portraits. But when I need reach, I need reach. At weddings, I need reach. So, I think the X-H1’s and the zooms will remain perfect for that purpose. I am not unhappy running dual systems and I do not regret having invested in the DSLR’s. I love my Nikon 35mm 1.8, and so I am happy with the decision to gift my Fuji 35mm. And the X-T20 literally sat there doing nothing for a year.

Moving forward, however, I am 99% certain that when investing in new gear, that gear will be Fuji. I am still holding out for the 50mm 1.0 lens, even though it is forever on backorder and may never be in stock again.

However, I am happy to have toyed around with the DSLR’s, because now. I. know. And I can move forward with eyes wide open.

I want to write more on the blog but I’ve been struggling with what to write for months now.

I want to take more pictures too, and have struggled with picking up the camera in non-working times, just around the house.

It’s this silly pandemic. I am certain we are all feeling frozen, to an extent.

The details in the photo are my own; my husband Jared’s wedding ring and the vintage wedding set he gave me for our 10th Valentine’s Day. Along with our real wedding invitation, which I harvested from a scrapbook so I could play with it in pictures.

The invitation photographs well if I do say so myself; Jared and I got married in April of 2005 so it’s nice to see that it looks as though I could be photographing a present-day invitation. I plan to pick up a flat-lay mat sometime before my next wedding in March, so that I have that available as a background for any setting. This background is my office coffee table. I plan to buy a light, neutral background.

Bring your invites to your weddings, or mail me one prior to the big day when you send out your invites! I love having them available to photograph with other details on wedding days.

These days, it’s all about being grounded. Twice a day, I lie on my office floor on my yoga mat and do basic stretches and core exercises. I usually listen to “Wake Up/Wind Down” with Niall Breslin as I do this. I struggle with longer meditation at the moment so this basic grounding is good.

I’m running a sale on new wedding packages and sessions through 5 pm on February 18– $150 off wedding packages originally valued at $1200 or more and $50 off sessions! Contracts must be signed and deposits submitted by 5 pm on February 18, 2021 in order to qualify for the discount, for new clients only. So, currently, wedding packages for 1 photographer are $1050 and sessions are $125.

It is Winter Break for the next three days at our house and this whole break has meant a big lay around for our family. We’ve done laundry and tended the dogs but that is about it.

Have a great week, everybody!

It’s been a long time since I blogged without feeling inhibited about it.

I don’t know what happened exactly. I used to write on my lifestyle blog about anything and everything that was happening in my life. Maybe I should have held back some, but kind of the polar-opposite happened.

I stopped writing about anything of substance. I purged the blog of most overly personal posts. I got caught up in marketing hype for the photography business and I really let go of something that meant a lot to me once upon a time.

So here I am, ready tentatively to try again. Ready to look past my fear of what people may or may not think.

Used to, I would get over-absorbed in blog redesign. That was my way of bringing fresh blood to the blog. I cannot tell you how many blog iterations I have been through over the past ten years. Different domain names, different themes….different blog niches…. nothing sticking for long.

Photography has been a constant through it all. Nearly ten years ago, I got my first real camera.

So, it is appropriate that my blog now finds itself attached to my photography business. My two loves together.

I don’t know yet how often I will post. Hopefully, it will be more often than I have posted in the past six months or so.

This is Eunice Marie. She came to live with us a couple of weeks ago. She is 11 years old.

Eunie has had a little bit of an adjustment period. She begs for treats. She survives someone who passed from covid. She was very, very well loved in her previous home. We will be her retirement home. Her Mama named her, so we’re keeping the name, though we call her “Eunie” for short most of the time.

We are still determining pack order in this house, but luckily the skirmishes are spaced out and few. As we get to know each other, Jared and Liam are Eunie’s primary people. Abby and Trixie are satisfied with having another family member in the house, but Eunie’s whole world has been torn upside down so we are trying to be really patient with her. Eunie’s biggest disappointment with us is that we do not give her treats on begging command. Eunie has a very specific, very endearing way of begging and a softer heart would give into her pleas. However, I have her health in mind. So like our other girls, she gets one treat a day.

Eunie came with a menagerie of toys and clothing items. Sadly, Abby absconds with Eunie’s toys, so they mostly stay up in Liam’s room, where Eunie sleeps at night.

Eunie almost never barks, except when Abby barks. When Abby barks, Eunie is her echo. It is SO adorable.

Incidentally, my love affair of cleaning house with vinegar has grown for its deodorizing power. As has the need to wipe down each dog daily with baby wipes to cut down on smelliness.

We officially have a pack. I am not certain but I suspect Eunie may be our new Alpha.

Let’s get the ghost out of the closet…..

I shaved my head, obviously. I don’t hate hair and I’m not sick.

I did it mostly for fun. It was a semi-spur-of-the-moment decision. My hair was a little more than an inch long anyway, and it grows fast if I hated it.

The thing is, I sort of love it! There’s no struggle with the hair dryer or brush in the morning. There’s no product to deal with unless I want my scalp to smell a certain way. There’s no hiding the camera tattoo behind my ear.

And I learned something important: I LOVE the shape of my head! I have a little dimple-dent in the back–who knew? I didn’t! But now I do!

Now, it’s true: It is January and this time of year was perhaps not the smartest time of the year to shave one’s head for the first time. It was seriously cold the first few days. I invested in a beanie for cold mornings of taking the dogs out and getting the boys to school.

Honestly, it was truly liberating to prove to myself that no part of my self-esteem is derived from my hair.

Care is easy: I use my face soap to clean both my face and scalp now, and then I throw on some conditioner in the shower. I do still use my heat protectant creme when I get out even though the dryer isn’t necessary, but that is more about my head smelling good than it is about protecting my hair.

Greasy hair, which I dealt with in spades when I had hair, is a big pet peeve of mine and I hate dealing with it. I also hate dealing with morning bed-head hair.

For now, I don’t have to deal with any of it!

I miss going to my stylist because it was an excuse to visit her since she is a good friend, but I texted her and told her we will have to do dinners instead of visiting at the salon. Thankfully, she gets it!

And oddly, I feel more feminine than ever. That’s the best part of all.